....another Mother's Day...

Today is not just another Mother's Day for me. I do take them seriously and take them to heart. Now that my 6 yr old is older and in school, she brings home many Mother's Day presents. Even today I received not one but two flowers from my younger children who really don't get what today is but that's okay....I cherish those presents also. The sad thing is...those pretty purple flowers will not last long in this house. I do not have a green thumb.

Mother's days used to be very hard on me. I tried to avoid them as much as possible. For eight years I sat through Mother's Day service after service trying not to cry and wondering why can't I be a mommy. Did I question God? Sure I did. Did He tell me why? No He did not. Even after my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage I asked why? Was it to be able to minister to other women who go through the same thing. YES! Shortly after, I was able to minister to a young bride after her first miscarriage. And now she too has been blessed with 3 children.

My heart still goes out to the wives who are trying to get pregnant and can't or have had a miscarriage or more. I don't know the answer as to why? But I do know this. That only peace will come through your dependence on Jesus Christ who knows all and is all. Will each time you hear of someone expecting or another Mother's Day rolls around get easier? Probably not. But be happy for those who are or becoming Mother's and be glad you have a Mother if she is still on this earth no matter how your relationship is with her. I do pray that if the desire in your heart is to be a mom, then you pray without ceasing, and you pray that God opens your womb as this was prayed for me. I am so thankful for the power of prayer. After many years, God has blessed me with two daughters and a son. And I cherish this Mother's Day.

Still Amazed!

I was looking over my blog wondering why I have not written anything in months. I read over the comments that have been posted from the beginning and it still amazes me what I went through to get baby J here safely. The comments and prayers from such dear friends and people I have never met brought tears to my eyes. I have had or having a rough time. Spiritually I am not were I need to be and that affects everything within me. I'm trying...trying hard! I know the Lord is with me cause thankfully I can still feel His presences. This to shall pass and my joy will be renewed but only with my Jesus' help.