Amazed!

This is truly an amazing story and it's true and it just happened today. Life is busy as we know it. Today is our running around day. We started off at piano practice, had to return some keys to the church and we had to run back home, cause I, yes mommy forgot a juice cup. Joseph was not happy about this. He still was not happy after he had his cup in his hand and he let us all know it....all the way to our next stop, which was Wal-mart.
I just had a few things to get and we quickly ran through the isles we needed and headed for the check out, we are doing good and it's not even 10:30 yet. Oh, and Joseph finally settled down.
We are headed to the car trying to rush before our candy that I bought ourselves for good behavior melted, cause it is hot out there. Jaci is helping me get the doors open and bags in the car, just being a good helper.

I might want to mention that since I knew we had a few places to go, I always pack a snack and drink for everyone, this time I told the kids to pick out one toy to bring and a movie for the ride. For Jena, knowing it would be close to nap time before we got home I brought her blankie. This blankie was given to her by Pop and MawMaw Jewel from their trip to TN. This blankie is a black bear cause they got it from the Great Smokey Mountains and I must mention that she loves this blankie. She sleeps with this blankie, has had professional pictures with this blankie cause that was the only way she was going to cooperate. So needless to say this blankie is special.

So I'm putting the groceries in the car and Jena who didn't want to sit in the buggy is standing in the buggy waiting for me to get her out. She finds her blankie in her bag. It is stuck so I help her and she and I take the buggy to the buggy cart cause I have been well trained by my husband. Plus I always try to park beside one to make things easier on me. We get in the car and I start to open our candy and we enjoy our candy on the way home. Cause we deserve it of course, we have worked hard and it's now only 10:45. By the time we get home Jena will be ready for her nap.

Now we are all chocolate happy and as I'm emptying out the car I start to almost panic. I can't find Jena's blankie anywhere. I thought I was going to throw-up! I don't remember her having it when I was putting her in her car-seat at Wal-mart. I hurry to put the cold stuff up and thankfully Jena was so tired she laid right down with no fuss. But I, yes mommy, was about to be sick. I call Joey and he is disappointed to. I call Wal-mart, no one found it. I call granma!
I can't stand it. I'll be sick if I don't go back. She comes and I go. Yes....I'm praying for this blankie. Hoping some other little girl didn't find and say "mommy can I have it." Or was blankie laying there wondering if we would ever return. I was planning a trip to TN in my head to get it replaced. Tears are wailing up.

I pull in the parking lot and in the distance I see still in the buggy corral and tan figure. Could it be, really could it be? YES! YES it is! It's there still in the buggy. I couldn't put it in park fast enough. Thank you Lord I shouted as I picked up that bear and hugged it. I got in the car and tears were flowing. Thankfully tears of joy and thankful for this answered prayer.

Could God really do such a thing? Sure He can and He did. His love for me and my family still Amazes me. As I right this, Jena is sleeping with he favorite toy...her bear blankie and I have picture to prove it. Love "bears" all things...
Blessing to you and your family!

....another Mother's Day...

Today is not just another Mother's Day for me. I do take them seriously and take them to heart. Now that my 6 yr old is older and in school, she brings home many Mother's Day presents. Even today I received not one but two flowers from my younger children who really don't get what today is but that's okay....I cherish those presents also. The sad thing is...those pretty purple flowers will not last long in this house. I do not have a green thumb.

Mother's days used to be very hard on me. I tried to avoid them as much as possible. For eight years I sat through Mother's Day service after service trying not to cry and wondering why can't I be a mommy. Did I question God? Sure I did. Did He tell me why? No He did not. Even after my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage I asked why? Was it to be able to minister to other women who go through the same thing. YES! Shortly after, I was able to minister to a young bride after her first miscarriage. And now she too has been blessed with 3 children.

My heart still goes out to the wives who are trying to get pregnant and can't or have had a miscarriage or more. I don't know the answer as to why? But I do know this. That only peace will come through your dependence on Jesus Christ who knows all and is all. Will each time you hear of someone expecting or another Mother's Day rolls around get easier? Probably not. But be happy for those who are or becoming Mother's and be glad you have a Mother if she is still on this earth no matter how your relationship is with her. I do pray that if the desire in your heart is to be a mom, then you pray without ceasing, and you pray that God opens your womb as this was prayed for me. I am so thankful for the power of prayer. After many years, God has blessed me with two daughters and a son. And I cherish this Mother's Day.

Still Amazed!

I was looking over my blog wondering why I have not written anything in months. I read over the comments that have been posted from the beginning and it still amazes me what I went through to get baby J here safely. The comments and prayers from such dear friends and people I have never met brought tears to my eyes. I have had or having a rough time. Spiritually I am not were I need to be and that affects everything within me. I'm trying...trying hard! I know the Lord is with me cause thankfully I can still feel His presences. This to shall pass and my joy will be renewed but only with my Jesus' help.